at dahil maaga ako..

hehe ang dami ko na naman entries sa aking bagong blog..last day ng work today for the year. and Christmas party ng personnel later. 11am ang dapat time-in ko..pero dahil ayokong mag-commute at ayokong ma-traffic, sumabay pa rin ako kay mama..at ayan, 630 pa lang, andito na ko sa school..hehe at least, i could get to do the paperworks that need to be done before vacation.

i was looking through my email messages and i saw some pics that i sent bes macmac before, when we were preparing a powerpoint presentation for girald, before he left for dubai. wala lang..kakamiss lang ang mga good ol' times ko with my dear friends..



this was taken nung nag-star city kame..hehe one of the boys nga ako e..di kase sumipot ung iba..




celebration ng barkada when rowell passed the ECE board exams..kakamiss ung pag complete ang barkada..=(


hehe one of the boys na naman..pano naman kase, ako lang ang laging free..hehe motto ko na noon e, "who needs a boyfriend when you have the best BOY friends ever?!"


this was taken during g's younger brother's wake..we really made him feel that we are there for him no matter what..as in, complete attendance kame ni ae sa wake..

haaay...kakamiss!!!

"i know exactly how you feel..."

"i know exactly how you feel..in fact, what happened to me was worse.."

one thing i've learned in my 5 years as a counselor is to never, ever tell your counselees that you know exactly how they feel. cuz you would never really know how they feel..the situations may be similar, but never exactly the same. although sometimes, i fail in doing this, i really try my best to be conscious never to say those words to them.

i got really frustrated when i heard the exact same words from someone. well, of course, i just told myself that this person meant well. but still, it's really frustrating. i felt like that person made fun of how i was feeling and told me that although she's going through the same thing, she's not affected as i was. excuse me if i'm being emotional..she did not go through the same things that i did..she did not experience the hardships i've gone through to get to where i am today. and letting all those go is really a challenge for me. and of course, she does not know me that well to tell me how i should i feel.

oh well, i know better than to be affected by this. i've got a lot of other things to focus my mind on. Lord, thank You for Your love that overflows..=)

when you think about it...

i really love the christmas season..it's like everyone's in good spirits and i can really feel the season everywhere i go. although i can say that it's not as festive as it used to be, but i still feel excited whenever it's november already..=)

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although the traffic is the worst at this time of the year.. =/

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saying goodbye is really hard..i'm really not fond of it..especially if the person you're saying goodbye to is really affected by it...gosh! it really sucks!

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my last christmas in reedley..sniff..i'll miss yearly celebrations like this..

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come to think of it, 3 months na lang...i've realized that i've got little time left..little time to make a difference..little time to show these kids how much they mean to me, how special they are to me and how they taught me a lot of things that i know i couldn't get anywhere else..

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haay...it's really hard to say goodbye... =/

christmas party!

today is the students' christmas party and their last day of school for the year. it was quite okay naman..although we had more fun during liane's send-off party..because we were complete then. but that's okay..cuz i know that we ended the year well. my class has been through a lot of things for this year, but i know that these stuff just made them better individuals and better students...


nathan..raven..chino..alec..won sok..bill..johnny..viktor..tj..galo..kelvin..kevin..elvin..brianna..toia..dani..
michelle..alliya..eileen..lora..liane..crystal..anna..nicole..melissa..


I'm really proud of my class! I LOVE THEM ALL!! =)

random questions...

hehe halatang mejo maluwag ang schedule cuz i've got a lot of entries today..hehe

got this from my sister's blog, who got it from her friend's blog..here goes..

**NAME 7 THINGS THAT MUST ALWAYS BE IN YOUR BAG**

1. cellphone
2. wallet
3.. my kikay kit
4. alcohol
5. tissue (sabi nga nila, ung ang ministry ko e, kase i always have tissue whenever someone cries)
6. umbrella
7. house keys

**Name 3 things you do when you're really stressed:**

1. listen to music
2. clean my room or office (although di halata at times..hehe)
3. pray for God's strength and grace to overflow

Name 5 favorite fruits:

1. mango
2. apple
3. strawberry
4. grape
5. ponkan

Name 3 things you are wearing right now:

1. reedley uniform
2. bracelet from terence
3. black shoes

What are you thinking about right now?
my future plans..Christmas gifts

Where is your phone?
with me..

Where do you sleep?
in my own room..

Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
i'm wearing my uniform

What was the last thing you ate?
oishi chocolate pillows..addictive talaga un!

What kind of cell phone do you have?
Sony Ericsson w580i

What is the closest item near you that is white?
my hanky

What is the last movie you watched?
Gone Baby Gone by Ben Affleck..ok naman, full of cussing lang..

When did you last feel a tree with your bare hands?
hmmm..cant remember

:::::THE STRANGE ELEVEN::::

Eleven odd facts about yourself:

1. Are you photo addict? i guess, because of the sentimental value of each picture that i have..note: i rarely like solo pictures of myself (but i do get vain at times..hehe) ..i'd rather have pictures taken with friends and significant people

2. What were you doing this morning at 8am? meeting with Ms. Flor for the Year-End Awards (graduation, here we come!)

3. Do you care for your friendster? i think so..but not so much

4. How many different beverages have you drank since yesterday? Milk tea, water, coke

5. What are three things you wish to change about yourself?
- being hard on myself
- insecure at times
- can get irritated easily when not in the mood

6. What do you wish for? happiness and satisfaction for me and my family

7. When was the last time you got really hurt? hmmm..this is one of the things i would rather forget..

8. Any plans for tonight? wrap gifts!

9. Something you are excited about? christmas...new career

10. What is your favorite flavor of ice cream? vanilla

11. Describe your keychain? Ate Honey's pasalubong from Singapore, the merlion. and rocking horses from a student

1. Do you know anyone in prison? i would love to know someone better..if that person is..............

2. If so, who? MICHAEL SCOFIELD, of course!

4. Party girl/boy or Home girl/boy? a little bit of both

5. Have you ever gotten naked at a party?! why should i?

6. Name someone you miss. a lot of people - Terence, my fantastic four, relatives in Pagsanjan

7. Are you named after a grandparent? nope

8. Who loves you? Jesus Loves me, this i know..for the Bible tells me so. =)

9. Have you ever broken a rib? nope

10. Would you rather be a girl or a guy? being a girl has its pros and cons..but im happy to be me!

1. Who is the most spoiled person you know? i'd rather not say..but you know who you are..hehehe

12. Would you rather have a million dollars or true love? true love of course, then we'd look for the million dollars together!

13. Would you rather date someone 2 years younger or older? hehe am i suppose to answer this? i've experienced both..so, i'd say 2 years older is better. since girls mature faster than guys, then we'd theoretically be the same age..hehe

14.. What's your favorite junk food? Doritos!

15. Do you have a porn collection? hehe of course not!

16. Is your birthday on a holiday? nope

17. Are you old enough to vote? yep

18. Do you have any friends or family in the war right now? none

19. Are you a vegetarian? nope, i love meat!

20. Do you worry about global warming? at times yeah..if i could do anything to help, in my own little way, i'd do it.

21. Do you like Polar bears? yes, yes! they look so adorable

22. What song do you want played at your funeral? actually, i've shared with april and rester my plans for my own funeral..(morbid, but yeah, i've thought about it)..i want everyone who will visit my wake to bring a picture of us together and those pictures will be made into this big collage on the wall. they can also pick out songs that remind them of me to be played at my wake...hehe of course, it has to be all about me! after all, that's my wake right..hehe

my family

This is my family..Papa, Mama and Len..=) we have had our share of happy and not-so-happy moments (especially when most of us are tired and cranky)..but we know that at the end of the day, God's love and our love for each other keep us together...

I became closer to Papa now that I am older because it is only now that i started to appreciate the things that he has done for me and for my sister. he may not be that malambing to us, but the time that he spends for us (buying stuff for us, making us sundo wherever we are no matter what time, doing our projects when we were young, giving us anything we want and need) shows much he really loves us. I used to feel that he was very very strict with me, but now i understand that he was just protecting me..now, he may still be a bit strict, but i can reason out to him na and he listens naman. =)

Mama has always been the "sunshine" in our family. when the three of us are cranky and not in the mood already, expect her to still be in her usual happy self. and of course, expect her to bug you the more with her pagiging makulit, making you smile and just forget why you're cranky in the first place. i really look up to her for being very strong and hardworking. despite the fact that she needs to work long hours a day, we are still her priority. in fact, i can never recall a time wherein mama could not attend to my needs just because she's "busy." and even if she is away on trips, she would text and call daily, just to check in on us. i know that when i become a mom in the future, i want to be like that..=)

my younger sister,Ellen, is taking up Medicine now in UP..i have talked about her in my Friendster blog..and i will not get tired of saying na i am really proud of her. looking back on how she was before and how she is now, i can say that she is turning out to be a very beautiful person inside and out. i still remember before, when she used to cry over anything (she would even cry if classes get suspended, for fear of missing school) and when she would keep things to herself and never let anyone in. but it is very different now..in fact, i cry more now..and i can say that our relationship as sisters really improved. she is not only my sister..she is also my best friend. and i know that our friendship will just keep on getting better and better.

basta...I LOVE MY FAMILY SO MUCH! and that sums it all up!

my triggie

WHY DO I LOVE THIS GUY SO MUCH?

*he makes me smile - with his kind and encouraging words, CORNY jokes, loving stares and endless kwentos.

*he makes me feel that i can do whatever i set my mind on

*he is determined to make a name for himself and is persevering when it comes to things he wants to achieve

*he plans for our future together..he wants us to be fully prepared before we settle down

*he is a man of his word (integ daw kase! hehe)

*he is caring and loving to his family

*he is caring and loving to my family

*he gets along well with my relatives and little cousins..especially his bonding with his pareng josh

*he holds his temper whenever i get unreasonable and emotional

*he holds and squeezes my hand when we're together

*he holds me tight whenever he's making lambing

*he makes funny faces when he knows that i am down or bored

*he always says "i love you" before putting the phone down

*he never wants the day to end without patching things up after a fight

*he never fails to kiss "hello" and "goodbye" to me

*the way we hold hands in silent prayer before we eat

*he tries to understand me at all times and accepts me for the person i really am - strengths, flaws and all

liane's send off party..

we had a surprise send-off party for liane yesterday. liane will be going back to korea this week and she will not come back to school anymore. it saddened my whole class because she is considered the baby of our section. she is always sweet and caring, very supportive of the class.. we can never forget her words of encouragement whenever needed - choral recitation, sportsfest, reading of honors..

i was teary-eyed when they made a powerpoint presentation for her..saying that, columbia will never be complete without her. it made me happy to know that i was able to emphasize the importance of each one of them to the class..that they all complete the class. =)

haaay..goodbyes really suck for me..=( but i know that wherever liane goes, she will bring with her the lessons she has learned in life and i know that she will go a long way..take care my sweet liane..i will definitely miss talking to you..

blogger? me?

yes, i am taking this blogging thing to the next level..=P i decided to make my own blog cuz i feel like the friendster blog is not enough..hehe and to think that i didnt actually find this interesting before..=) well, things do change..i now find it easier to write down my feelings and thoughts for people to see..